How I make decisions.

A lot has changed since the last post I made here, which isn’t suprising seeing as I seem to max out at about 3 posts a year. The second year of uni is over. I have 2, possibly 3 resits, and the urge to do some kind of project. Not a clue what, as per usual. Running windows 7 now, and the graphics tablet appears to be stable on it, so maybe I’ll ‘get back to the drawing board’, B-dum, tsh. Today (11th) also marks four months of me and Charlotte being together. Awwwwwwwwwwwww

Anyways…

Padams been wanting to make crazy flash games

Harry wants to make tetris, or a deriviant of.

Charlotte has the vague urge to make a paint-your-enemy source mod

I have an amalgamation of some five or ten totally unrelated ideas, That battle for supremacy in mortal hand-to-hand combat in a dome shaped cage within my mind. A decision is made as one sweeps off the head of its opponent, holding it up to the cheering croud, only to have it fire lasers from the eyes, grow legs from the neck and re-attach, in a last minute turn around victory. At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter which one wins, because the guy observing will eventually pull the lever that drops everyone in the acid filled cyanide coated wasp infested spike pit. Or maybe himself and none of the ideas. Nobody knows for sure.

And that’s why I have trouble making important decisions

Antics with super-glue

Let this be a warning to you all. Do not, ever, try to repair a pressurized plastic container with superglue. It sounds stupid now, but when that power washer / airsoft gun or in my case, super soaker explodes, you’ll probably want to fix it, and super glue will probably be one of the first things that comes to mind.

This was my first mistake.

The second was being impatient, and waiting 2.4 minutes to test it rather than 24 hours.

I blame most of this on the super glue fumes, as i’m still slightly woozy (no, really) and need some kind of scape goat.

well anyway, I filled the tank, and proceeded to pump my water rifle. The first pump went well. The second, I heard a hissing noise. By the third pump, water was streaking out from the cracks in the superglue and from behind the tape. This wouldn’t have been so bad if I had waited for the glue to fully dry, but no. I just got sprayed in the face and arms with diluted superglue, and it burns. Rather a lot. My fingers all have that horrible rough crusty feeling you get when you glue them together. Parts of my arm are bright red, and one eye is intensely uncomfortable (but thankfully, not glued).

so yeah…superglue is a vivious, deadly force to be reckoned with, and should be treated with the respect and fear that it deserves (as well as patience).

I was lucky this time, but who knows. it might not spare you…

It’s been a while

But exams are over, and I’m back in the East Tilbury. I passed everything in the first year, Huzzah!

With too much free time comes motivation to pick up where I left off. I’m serious this time! expect something…

Oh, and my new computarbox is awesome. Probably better than yours. That is, unless you have too much money. By that, I mean, more than me.

another one bites the dust

I know i said i’d put something up soon…I was getting into the swing of something left half done. went to bed, woke up this morning. My processor had cooked itself during the night. I normally keep my window open of a night time, for both me and the machine, but i was feeling unusually cold last night. I had the window closed and the heater on low. I don’t think it liked it. By some strange coincidence, it decided not to lock up and sit there as normal, but it actually managed to force a restart when the cpu hit boiling point, something I’ve never seen it do before. As a result, it looped this overheat-restart until it died completely.

Damages? no idea as to extent. might just be the processor, might be the motherboard too. I’ve seen  AMD Athlon 3200+ 2.2GHz 512kbit 754socket go for between £20 and £140 including shipping. The upper range labelling them as ‘rare’ and ‘historic’. This is of course, laughable bullshit.

With the holiday coming up after exams (trip around europe with the uni peoples) I’m in a dillema. Do I buy a  new processor risking that the motherboard may have gone too? Do I go for a whole new machine, wasting the potential of rather a large amount of the still-good components in my current box? The 2GB of DDR set me back £60-70, not that long back.  The graphics card is AGP, but it’s top of its class (bioshock on full settings and resolution, smooth as anything). My components may not be the newest out there, but they certainly hold their own, and I don’t want any of that to go to waste.

How rare!

I appear to have found an interesting item in the wordpressings.

http://blog.animehomeplanet.com/uncategorized/a-few-little-things/

Some of you may realise that this looks awfully familiar. I can assure you however, that I did not write this, and that I have not once gone by the alias of ‘Loli Salad’.

In other news, pub crawl tomorrow. It’s a childhood heroes theme, so I’m going as sonic. I have hair gel/wax, blue dye, gold rings, and a blue shirt. i still want to make a little card emerald or something, as well as some red and white shoe covers, and I could do with a beige t-shirt… I will post pics to prove it happened.

A few little things…

Stuff seems to be looking up again. I stayed out of the loop for 2 days, came back in, had a few talks, and we’re getting back on track with this whole ‘life’ thing. I mean, there’s still one or two issues to iron out, but for the most part I’m happy again.

I got a promotion friday, it has been decided (by default) that I’m secretary of UPAS (University of Portsmouth Anime Society) as of….next academic year. Some stuff kicks in now, and to be honest it’s not really a big role (which i didnt want anyway). I’ll be organising the socials, dealing with basics, and generally being an all-round…stuff…person. So woo, go me.

I’ve not done any drawing on paper nor screen since i’ve been back. not just because of time and people constraints, but also, I’ve lost my little stripey black and grey book of general notes and sketches. its around…oh wait, i just had a thought. brb.

well I’ll be damned. it was behind the first aid kit in my top drawer. I guess that means I’ll have to do something soon, heh. I’d have been sad if i’d have lost my little book.

lastly, I have paid out for another two years of the ‘mentalphysics.co.uk’ domain name, so…yeah. I guess thats it. for the history on the use of said domain, check out the about section on the bar above. I guess the next step would be hosting, but thats not something I really want to pay for, nor do I need it as yet.

on a slightly darker note, the death paranoia and panic attacks are increasing again. If anyone has the same problem out there and wants to talk, please get in contact by any means, I’m not fussy. For those of you that don’t catch on quick, you may or may not have been told that I worry about dying rather a lot. Not necessarily now, but the fact that it is innevitable and will one day happen. Of course, being more science oriented and much less inclined towards religion (seriously, sometimes I think you guys have it easy), this is a rather disturbing thing to have to deal with. Being 20 isn’t helping.

anyway, to sleep I go.

And yes, I’ve been drinking. I apologise for the slight non-fluidity of this post, or some-such.

oh, and Gratz to Dani for becoming instantaneous treasurer of UPAS!

and…I played singstar today, after much deliberation. It was fun, and I was suprised to be quite good at it, but it’s a little on the embarrassing side for me. I’ll stick to my stepmania, thank you

thats really it now. shoo, away. I need my sleepings.

It only takes a second to ask!

So I’m back after a lengthy break. Had the easter holidays (and the three parties that came with it) and have been back in Portsmouth for a week now. A few days with Dan and Katie, and an entire week with Chelle. It’s been fantastic, for the most part. I’ve done so much, spent so much time with people, it feels like I’ve been back for a month. I’m pretty much exhausted. But, as always, there is one thing thats tainted it, and one thing I have to pick at.

This is NOT a call for attention

This is NOT a generalisation of all my friends

This is NOT just happening to me.

I have a person living next door to me, who is a friend of mine. We’ve been good all week, fine today so far, it was all good. And yet, it seems, the second the Essex friends are gone, suddenly it becomes too difficult to knock next door. It’s not just him either, and it’s not a one off thing. If any single one of you people has ANY problem with inviting me out to join the rest of you, ANY reason why I keep getting left behind, then say it so I can forget the whole thing, because I’m sick and tired of waiting for friends who are nothing but no-shows and dissapointment.

I know that most of the time this isn’t intentional, and I have some amazing people I know I can turn to when the going gets rough, any time. But I want anyone reading this to do something. The next time you go somewhere with your friends, stop and think for just one minute, and make sure you’re not leaving anyone behind.

It doesn’t matter how many wonderfull friends you have nearby, if one person who means anything to you leaves you behind, it feels awfull frigging lonely.

oops

I left everything too late again. Today I have to:

Tidy

Clean

Pack

Have a dyslexia screening

Go to last anime society and take part in resulting antics.

It wouldn’t be so bad if I didn’t have stuff everywhere. My god, this place is a total shithole…

Hooray!

looks like i’m getting back into it. Got 4 more ideas drawn up last night. Drawing is sloooowly improving, but still uncertain as to a style to stick to. I reeeeeally don’t want to touch the ‘weeaboo’ anime style at all. It’s cliche’d, and even thinking about doing that makes me die inside, non literally of course.

Exams fast approaching now, 29th, 4th and 6th. I hereby promise, that i will upload something by the eighth. I’ve been doing too much dancing around worrying about how i’m going to do this, rather than justuploading something fun and getting on with it. Breaking that initial barrier of embarrasment i guess is the main thing i worry about, but im not going to get around that.

so, if i dont put something up on/before the 8th, harry and phill will drag me away with ski masks, and leave my mangled corpse in a hole somewhere, from which i’ll return after a thousand years to creep the fuck out of local residents and cast a shadow of evil over the world. except, i wont. nor will i be killed. but the (slight) determination is back!

Not dead before it’s begun. Just busy.

yeah, I know I said I’d get stuff up soon, and I still intend to. I did say the first week or so back at uni might be a bit empty. I was so busy with the webaud coursework, and now python, that other that the few hours I get to spend with friends I’m packed. And that god-forsaken fire alarm, at 3:30. Twice this week. Seriously guys, what the hell. I’m pretty sure whoevers doing that, half of magaret rule hall wants you dead now. Although according to what becca said last year, I think we’ve been pretty good for fire alarms. Oh, I have managed to squeeze in a little practice at drawing, and I know its a little better than before but, I’ve kinda lost that confidence I had before. Comic drawing has ground to a total halt, I’m out of ideas already. This is the reason I didn’t start posting them right from the word go… I’m pretty certain that this is by no means a permanent thing, and once i start getting some free time and decent sleep, it will return to me, but I still feel ashamed to call my crappy-5-year-old-like-paper-spasms any kind of ‘drawing’. I originally wasn’t even bothered with drawing, I just wanted stick people. Now that looks really empty on the screen. On the other hand, I will never ever EVER upload anything more than simple stick images.