another one bites the dust

I know i said i’d put something up soon…I was getting into the swing of something left half done. went to bed, woke up this morning. My processor had cooked itself during the night. I normally keep my window open of a night time, for both me and the machine, but i was feeling unusually cold last night. I had the window closed and the heater on low. I don’t think it liked it. By some strange coincidence, it decided not to lock up and sit there as normal, but it actually managed to force a restart when the cpu hit boiling point, something I’ve never seen it do before. As a result, it looped this overheat-restart until it died completely.

Damages? no idea as to extent. might just be the processor, might be the motherboard too. I’ve seen  AMD Athlon 3200+ 2.2GHz 512kbit 754socket go for between £20 and £140 including shipping. The upper range labelling them as ‘rare’ and ‘historic’. This is of course, laughable bullshit.

With the holiday coming up after exams (trip around europe with the uni peoples) I’m in a dillema. Do I buy a  new processor risking that the motherboard may have gone too? Do I go for a whole new machine, wasting the potential of rather a large amount of the still-good components in my current box? The 2GB of DDR set me back £60-70, not that long back.  The graphics card is AGP, but it’s top of its class (bioshock on full settings and resolution, smooth as anything). My components may not be the newest out there, but they certainly hold their own, and I don’t want any of that to go to waste.

How rare!

I appear to have found an interesting item in the wordpressings.

http://blog.animehomeplanet.com/uncategorized/a-few-little-things/

Some of you may realise that this looks awfully familiar. I can assure you however, that I did not write this, and that I have not once gone by the alias of ‘Loli Salad’.

In other news, pub crawl tomorrow. It’s a childhood heroes theme, so I’m going as sonic. I have hair gel/wax, blue dye, gold rings, and a blue shirt. i still want to make a little card emerald or something, as well as some red and white shoe covers, and I could do with a beige t-shirt… I will post pics to prove it happened.

A few little things…

Stuff seems to be looking up again. I stayed out of the loop for 2 days, came back in, had a few talks, and we’re getting back on track with this whole ‘life’ thing. I mean, there’s still one or two issues to iron out, but for the most part I’m happy again.

I got a promotion friday, it has been decided (by default) that I’m secretary of UPAS (University of Portsmouth Anime Society) as of….next academic year. Some stuff kicks in now, and to be honest it’s not really a big role (which i didnt want anyway). I’ll be organising the socials, dealing with basics, and generally being an all-round…stuff…person. So woo, go me.

I’ve not done any drawing on paper nor screen since i’ve been back. not just because of time and people constraints, but also, I’ve lost my little stripey black and grey book of general notes and sketches. its around…oh wait, i just had a thought. brb.

well I’ll be damned. it was behind the first aid kit in my top drawer. I guess that means I’ll have to do something soon, heh. I’d have been sad if i’d have lost my little book.

lastly, I have paid out for another two years of the ‘mentalphysics.co.uk’ domain name, so…yeah. I guess thats it. for the history on the use of said domain, check out the about section on the bar above. I guess the next step would be hosting, but thats not something I really want to pay for, nor do I need it as yet.

on a slightly darker note, the death paranoia and panic attacks are increasing again. If anyone has the same problem out there and wants to talk, please get in contact by any means, I’m not fussy. For those of you that don’t catch on quick, you may or may not have been told that I worry about dying rather a lot. Not necessarily now, but the fact that it is innevitable and will one day happen. Of course, being more science oriented and much less inclined towards religion (seriously, sometimes I think you guys have it easy), this is a rather disturbing thing to have to deal with. Being 20 isn’t helping.

anyway, to sleep I go.

And yes, I’ve been drinking. I apologise for the slight non-fluidity of this post, or some-such.

oh, and Gratz to Dani for becoming instantaneous treasurer of UPAS!

and…I played singstar today, after much deliberation. It was fun, and I was suprised to be quite good at it, but it’s a little on the embarrassing side for me. I’ll stick to my stepmania, thank you

thats really it now. shoo, away. I need my sleepings.

It only takes a second to ask!

So I’m back after a lengthy break. Had the easter holidays (and the three parties that came with it) and have been back in Portsmouth for a week now. A few days with Dan and Katie, and an entire week with Chelle. It’s been fantastic, for the most part. I’ve done so much, spent so much time with people, it feels like I’ve been back for a month. I’m pretty much exhausted. But, as always, there is one thing thats tainted it, and one thing I have to pick at.

This is NOT a call for attention

This is NOT a generalisation of all my friends

This is NOT just happening to me.

I have a person living next door to me, who is a friend of mine. We’ve been good all week, fine today so far, it was all good. And yet, it seems, the second the Essex friends are gone, suddenly it becomes too difficult to knock next door. It’s not just him either, and it’s not a one off thing. If any single one of you people has ANY problem with inviting me out to join the rest of you, ANY reason why I keep getting left behind, then say it so I can forget the whole thing, because I’m sick and tired of waiting for friends who are nothing but no-shows and dissapointment.

I know that most of the time this isn’t intentional, and I have some amazing people I know I can turn to when the going gets rough, any time. But I want anyone reading this to do something. The next time you go somewhere with your friends, stop and think for just one minute, and make sure you’re not leaving anyone behind.

It doesn’t matter how many wonderfull friends you have nearby, if one person who means anything to you leaves you behind, it feels awfull frigging lonely.